Saturday, August 18, 2012
My laptop...
My laptop is acting weird...I've troubleshooted as far as I can and am taking it to get looked at. I don't know what they'll tell me...I'm doing limited stuff from my phone for now...
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
This, that and Derwent...
Still don't really want to post about really personal stuff but so much here, but I'm going to be on pins and needles tomorrow. Positivity is key.
Pulled some drawing excercises from the Derwent website. I'm glad they tweeted me, or else I don't know that it would have occurred to me to go to their website and find them.
Sorry for the ridiculously short post.
Still haven't gotten my Misha Photo Op yet, but when I do, I'll post it in the Day 3 entry for NJ Con.
Friday, August 10, 2012
I love how...
I just noticed that the stuff I post that gets the most views is either In Memoriam posts or when I go to conventions. lol I guess everything could have 0 views, so thank you...It bums me out a little when it comes to my artwork, but meh *shrugs* I blog about and draw what I'm into or else to me there'd be no point in doing this.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Day 3 at NJCon2012
I got up early to go to the Breakfast Q and A...I think everything started a little late though. I was too shy to ask names, but a woman asked me about the John Passarella book I was reading. I can't remember which Supernatural book she was reading...I do remember that I'd read it and didn't find it that bad. She said it was boring to her. To each her own. :) I believe she was also the one who won the centerpiece contest. Again, I really need to get out more, so stuff won't be so awkward... I used to be better at this...
The Breakfast Q and A, I can't give a blow by blow, because I can only remember bits and pieces...I can give a highlight though, the speed walking. XD Jared was saying that he didn't think speed walking should be an actual Olympic sport, then a fan asked he and Misha to race. I got a blur and I had to be fast to get that. It's in my tweets, if I can figure out how to get it into the blog post I will, but it's extremely difficult to do a long blog post on the iphone. It's probably way easier to do on an iPad, but Heaven knows when I'll be able to afford one of those.
I didn't take any video this time, again 'cause I was right up front and I wasn't feeling lucky/blessed about taping. I did take some photos. They're split between the phone and the digital camera. It will take a while to put them up.
I had a headache for most of the day. My dad out of the blue when I called him advised me to drink some more water. Eerie.
The photo ops...I have a third, but I don't want to wait anymore. I'll just add it when it comes and you can look or not.
The Creation volunteers at the photo shoot kept urging us to ask for a hug in the shot, rather than pose and then ask for the hug...That kind of thing confuses me. The rules for everyone say don't ask for a hug, so I didn't. I was going to do the one armed thing and then Jared Padalecki decided to smish, so I just threw both arms around him like that. I can't figure out whether that's disbelief on my face or I look like I'm about to cry. Probably some mixture of both...[I was "love" this time...idek, but again, I appreciate it.]
I got to meet John Passarella, which was awesome I don't want to give spoilers to Night Terrors for those that haven't read it, but his characterization is spot on. I also loved his pacing. There's gross outs in it though...If you have an insect phobia, I wouldn't read this.
This is my photo op with Misha Collins and Jared Padalecki. This is what I meant by the one-armed thing. Not that I didn't/don't appreciate that hug... Both were very sweet.
Misha's and Jared's Q and A...Again, I'm having trouble remembering everything, I tweeted some as it happened and I also know there will be vids. As far as describing it in my own unique way, if my brain weren't like a sieve, I'd certainly try. The point where Jared was trying to get out of Misha's jacket and dropped his phone. Misha looked like he wanted to hurt him for a second, but they handled it. lol Those books on lucid dreaming...I want them. I can't remember which panel the top hat and camouflage paint came up, but that response was...I think it stemmed from Jared's response to a Zombie Apocalypse question. Misha talked about GISHWHES...It looks like it's challenging but a lot of fun. I wish I had the time, money, and wherewithal to get into it.
Edwin [He was volunteering for Creation.] told me he thought my name was pretty. Love his accent...Love it. I enjoy a lot of different accents, including British accents.
In Misha's autograph line...I got confused and thought Waking Life is a book, it's actually a movie, but he told me there's tons of books on lucid dreaming...I'm curious about this subject, so I think I'll delve into it.
Jared's autograph line...I don't remember saying much except for Thank you. So he signs my photo...and I'm turning to leave and he thanks me for coming to the meet and greet and then you know what he does? He winks at me and kisses at me...I wonder what my face must have looked like? Deer caught in headlights? A little smile? My c'mon now smh thing? Or some weird combo of all three. I'm thinking probably the last one. Him doing that made up for all the slights/snubs I encountered off and on throughout the convention from various fans and then some.
This is where the my Misha Collins photo op will go, once I get it. I also have something to share about his photo op too.
The photo op didn't turn out quite the way I thought...Will post it and share my story anyway though. Plus, also bear in mind Misha had to catch a flight. To say the line for Misha was long was an understatement. So, I reach him and he smiles and says, "And how are we today, Madam?". I laughed and said fine. So, we're both smiling. I'm thinking that's what the picture is going to look like. Not so much. I'm also doing that thing I do where my legs aren't as close as my upper body...I'm not sure why I do it...They rush us through so fast, that really the most I can hope for is not to blink and to hold the smile. They also don't usually give you retakes.
The Breakfast Q and A, I can't give a blow by blow, because I can only remember bits and pieces...I can give a highlight though, the speed walking. XD Jared was saying that he didn't think speed walking should be an actual Olympic sport, then a fan asked he and Misha to race. I got a blur and I had to be fast to get that. It's in my tweets, if I can figure out how to get it into the blog post I will, but it's extremely difficult to do a long blog post on the iphone. It's probably way easier to do on an iPad, but Heaven knows when I'll be able to afford one of those.
I didn't take any video this time, again 'cause I was right up front and I wasn't feeling lucky/blessed about taping. I did take some photos. They're split between the phone and the digital camera. It will take a while to put them up.
I had a headache for most of the day. My dad out of the blue when I called him advised me to drink some more water. Eerie.
The photo ops...I have a third, but I don't want to wait anymore. I'll just add it when it comes and you can look or not.
The Creation volunteers at the photo shoot kept urging us to ask for a hug in the shot, rather than pose and then ask for the hug...That kind of thing confuses me. The rules for everyone say don't ask for a hug, so I didn't. I was going to do the one armed thing and then Jared Padalecki decided to smish, so I just threw both arms around him like that. I can't figure out whether that's disbelief on my face or I look like I'm about to cry. Probably some mixture of both...[I was "love" this time...idek, but again, I appreciate it.]
I got to meet John Passarella, which was awesome I don't want to give spoilers to Night Terrors for those that haven't read it, but his characterization is spot on. I also loved his pacing. There's gross outs in it though...If you have an insect phobia, I wouldn't read this.
This is my photo op with Misha Collins and Jared Padalecki. This is what I meant by the one-armed thing. Not that I didn't/don't appreciate that hug... Both were very sweet.
Misha's and Jared's Q and A...Again, I'm having trouble remembering everything, I tweeted some as it happened and I also know there will be vids. As far as describing it in my own unique way, if my brain weren't like a sieve, I'd certainly try. The point where Jared was trying to get out of Misha's jacket and dropped his phone. Misha looked like he wanted to hurt him for a second, but they handled it. lol Those books on lucid dreaming...I want them. I can't remember which panel the top hat and camouflage paint came up, but that response was...I think it stemmed from Jared's response to a Zombie Apocalypse question. Misha talked about GISHWHES...It looks like it's challenging but a lot of fun. I wish I had the time, money, and wherewithal to get into it.
Edwin [He was volunteering for Creation.] told me he thought my name was pretty. Love his accent...Love it. I enjoy a lot of different accents, including British accents.
In Misha's autograph line...I got confused and thought Waking Life is a book, it's actually a movie, but he told me there's tons of books on lucid dreaming...I'm curious about this subject, so I think I'll delve into it.
Jared's autograph line...I don't remember saying much except for Thank you. So he signs my photo...and I'm turning to leave and he thanks me for coming to the meet and greet and then you know what he does? He winks at me and kisses at me...I wonder what my face must have looked like? Deer caught in headlights? A little smile? My c'mon now smh thing? Or some weird combo of all three. I'm thinking probably the last one. Him doing that made up for all the slights/snubs I encountered off and on throughout the convention from various fans and then some.
This is where the my Misha Collins photo op will go, once I get it. I also have something to share about his photo op too.
The photo op didn't turn out quite the way I thought...Will post it and share my story anyway though. Plus, also bear in mind Misha had to catch a flight. To say the line for Misha was long was an understatement. So, I reach him and he smiles and says, "And how are we today, Madam?". I laughed and said fine. So, we're both smiling. I'm thinking that's what the picture is going to look like. Not so much. I'm also doing that thing I do where my legs aren't as close as my upper body...I'm not sure why I do it...They rush us through so fast, that really the most I can hope for is not to blink and to hold the smile. They also don't usually give you retakes.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Still waiting a while on that last photo op...
Please bear with me. ... This is the first year that's happened to me [hence I have no ballpark idea on how long it'll take to get to me and I forgot to ask...Plus I didn't want to seem impatient...It's a photo op, not a matter of life and death...If an unreasonable amount of time passes I will follow up though...]
I've also got to go back to work tomorrow. So, my time definitely won't be as flexible. It's really difficult to do long blog posts from the phone and the browser's at my job are ancient and don't support much of squat. So on break, I can do almost nothing as far as blogging is concerned. Again, sorry. This is part of the reason, why such a long time passes between posts.
I've got a Webinar on Audacity next Tues.
I was in a cab listening to what a cabbie had on the radio and this woman was complaining about her local churches...She didn't like the gossiping and some of the other stuff that goes on, so she said she goes to church online. I had never heard of that...I was like you can do that???!!!! Wow! :D
But then again, you can do just about everything else online, so why not go to church?
Working on another drawing...It's simple and it's kind of a childhood thing I had in my head for a few weeks at least...I think there are times when I must broadcast like mad and just don't know it. If it turns out like anything I want to paint her before I post her.
I've also got to go back to work tomorrow. So, my time definitely won't be as flexible. It's really difficult to do long blog posts from the phone and the browser's at my job are ancient and don't support much of squat. So on break, I can do almost nothing as far as blogging is concerned. Again, sorry. This is part of the reason, why such a long time passes between posts.
I've got a Webinar on Audacity next Tues.
I was in a cab listening to what a cabbie had on the radio and this woman was complaining about her local churches...She didn't like the gossiping and some of the other stuff that goes on, so she said she goes to church online. I had never heard of that...I was like you can do that???!!!! Wow! :D
But then again, you can do just about everything else online, so why not go to church?
Working on another drawing...It's simple and it's kind of a childhood thing I had in my head for a few weeks at least...I think there are times when I must broadcast like mad and just don't know it. If it turns out like anything I want to paint her before I post her.
Monday, August 6, 2012
Done some more thinking...
I've got lots of calls to make tomorrow and I've got to go back to work Wed. It's going to be a busy next few months both personally and professionally and I just hope I'm up to it.
... I'm going to sell the photo op I had for Vegas on eBay and hold out for either Vancouver 2013 or 2014. Watch the blog and I think I'll use twitter and tumblr too.
I'm still taking classes with Edge Studio, beyond that I'm kind of cautious about saying more. I've got a really half-assed profile on Google Plus...just what I need to get even more tied up in social media, right? :p
I'll finish posting about the con within the next few days. I still don't have a scanner and the sun was at the wrong place in the sky to take pictures of pictures once I got home. Had been asleep and the mailman woke me knocking, he almost left. He was laughing at me, but if he knew how hard it was for me to get to the post office to pick stuff up, let alone how hard it is for me to get a day off. lol smh
... I'm going to sell the photo op I had for Vegas on eBay and hold out for either Vancouver 2013 or 2014. Watch the blog and I think I'll use twitter and tumblr too.
I'm still taking classes with Edge Studio, beyond that I'm kind of cautious about saying more. I've got a really half-assed profile on Google Plus...just what I need to get even more tied up in social media, right? :p
I'll finish posting about the con within the next few days. I still don't have a scanner and the sun was at the wrong place in the sky to take pictures of pictures once I got home. Had been asleep and the mailman woke me knocking, he almost left. He was laughing at me, but if he knew how hard it was for me to get to the post office to pick stuff up, let alone how hard it is for me to get a day off. lol smh
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Day 2 at NJ Con 2012
Just got asked if I was enjoying myself just now...it's not that I'm not, it's more than likely sleep deprivation. I read somewhere you should get at least 5 hours of sleep. To those that can and do function on less, I don't know how they do it, but I salute you.
Got to meet Jim Beaver...he teased me that all of MD is 20 minutes outside of DC, not just New Carrollton. [I'm paraphrasing...I've never been good with recall and I'm way better remembering faces as opposed to names.]
I don't want to be too redundant, because all the Q and A's are on YouTube probably and there will be tons of summaries from different perspectives on this.
I kind of liked the zombie apocalypse questions, the Pokemon questions not so much.
I don't know where the 50 Shades stuff during Richard and Matt's panel came from...I wonder they shouldn't do their Q and A right before Karaoke. Just when I think the bawdiness can't get worse. lol smdh
I got to talk to Jace, the guy sitting next to me a good bit off and on. I like actively talking about fandom stuff [All fandoms, not just SPN...comic book stuff, Star Trek...I could go on] with someone and not having someone take a condescending attitude towards it. Attending stuff like this allows me that outlet too.
I was not the only Black chick attending [Yes, I do head counts.] :)
I will post photos of all my autographs, but I think this was my pleasant but unexpected surprise today.
Got to meet Jim Beaver...he teased me that all of MD is 20 minutes outside of DC, not just New Carrollton. [I'm paraphrasing...I've never been good with recall and I'm way better remembering faces as opposed to names.]
I don't want to be too redundant, because all the Q and A's are on YouTube probably and there will be tons of summaries from different perspectives on this.
I kind of liked the zombie apocalypse questions, the Pokemon questions not so much.
I don't know where the 50 Shades stuff during Richard and Matt's panel came from...I wonder they shouldn't do their Q and A right before Karaoke. Just when I think the bawdiness can't get worse. lol smdh
I got to talk to Jace, the guy sitting next to me a good bit off and on. I like actively talking about fandom stuff [All fandoms, not just SPN...comic book stuff, Star Trek...I could go on] with someone and not having someone take a condescending attitude towards it. Attending stuff like this allows me that outlet too.
I was not the only Black chick attending [Yes, I do head counts.] :)
I will post photos of all my autographs, but I think this was my pleasant but unexpected surprise today.
I'm a bit embarrassed to admit this, but Mark Pellegrino scares me a bit.
The cocktail party...I'd never gone Gold to an SPN convention, so this was a new experience. And definitely a learning experience. The tables were not assigned. That would have been a little easier for me, as at times I'm shy to the point of it being almost debilitating. Blogging and tweeting and stuff isn't really face to face interaction, so I sort of get to coast. Last night I couldn't do that and I was so jittery. I only limited myself to one drink. I made an active effort to introduce myself around at the table I did wind up at. I just couldn't maintain it, so by the time other people came, I just wasn't emotionally equipped to handle it. I don't know whether smiling does more or less damage in a situation like that or not, but like I said, it was a learning experience. I think some people saw me as being rude, but if you know anything about my character at all, you know that's not me or my intent. I do still want to apologize though. The woman with that amazing Devil's Trap costume was sitting at our table for a while. I wanted to say something to her, but like I said I was struggling.
There was a woman from NJ at the table that was just wonderful to me, and I'm not sure if it was as difficult for her as it was for me to come out of my shell, but I really want to thank her too. I forgot a little evening bag, so I didn't really have anything to write with. [Oh yeah, I was surprised at how casual the dress code was. I got a compliment on my shoes in the elevator though. I got down there and although I wasn't the only one in a dress... I felt kind of overdressed. Seems with me, it's either feast or famine.] I don't remember her name, but I do remember her face. I also missed the chance to ask her if she has a Twitter account, but since I didn't have a pen anyway...
She helped me to take this.
I don't know why I continuously tilt my head in shots like that.
My little Fujifilm Finepix has a crappy zoom feature. When I max it out, the image distorts, so I actually wind up taking better shots with my iphone for now.
I got one shot of a centerpiece, but we couldn't leave the tables except when Jim Beaver, Mark Pellegrino, Mark Sheppard, Richard Speight, Jr., Matt Cohen and Sebastian Roche' lined up.
Something that stood out to me...Matt Cohen smelled really good. One woman asked him about his cologne, but he didn't want to tell, because he said he wanted it to be uniquely his, which I can understand.
I also liked that some people felt comfortable giving hugs, I definitely didn't knock it.
People were having a blast dancing. I got a kick out of watching. I didn't, because I'm not a good dancer at all.
At around 1, I tottered on up to bed. Early for some of you, I know. ;)
Day 1 at NJCon2012
I always have trouble getting up for an early flight.
I get to the airport. Make it in time. They did an inspection at Reagan and something went wrong with our plane. This is the first time I had a connecting flight to anywhere, so I was already apprehensive. I didn't freak out big time, but they knew I was stressed. Everybody and their mama must have been going to New Jersey, because initially they told me that I couldn't get out of DC until around 8 or 9pm. (Again thank you to Raymond and Charles and staff.!)
I didn't get to NJ 'til around 2 I guess.
I'm amazed that more places don't carry those little flight approved bottles of Bio True. I need a bit more contact lens fluid than I was allowed to bring which sucks. :(
Got a very nice autographed photo of Charles Malik Whitfield. I wish they'd done more with FBI Agent Victor Henriksen, because I think that would've been stellar. He was starting to come around and would've been a good ally to have. Not to mention, he's not hard on the eyes at all. Had to spend carefully, because I got thrown a few unexpected curveballs. No one's fault, I'll just plan better next time, although the stuff I've been hearing about the post office lately has me more than a bit worried.
For the most part I enjoyed the Q and A's. The only person's I missed was Steve Carlson's and that was because I had a photo op with Rachel Miner. It is very hard to catch every event at these. I guess you just sort of have to pick and choose.
One day, I would also like to play the yes and no game. I know I can at least make it to the medium round.
I don't think the story pitches were as good this year as a whole... (I've only been to 3 of these so far though, and I started attending fairly late in the run. I've been watching since Seas. 1, but job stablility was a factor for me around the time they first started the cons, so even if I wanted to, I prob. couldn't have attended. )
Signings...I did get both Julie McNiven's and Rachel Miner's autographs. I did a photo op with Rachel. She was so cool. That this was her first SPN convention just blows me away. In the autograph line, she told me that she liked my shirt. It was the '67 Hunting Champions shirt. I thought it came from Red Bubble, but it came from Ript Apparel. For the record, I enjoy different things about all the Megs.
I had coffee at the airport. It did nothing. I guess I should've kept it up. The heat made me feel that much worse... I don't do well with energy drinks at all and my primary care physician told me I'm prediabetic. }:( I went upstairs to eat something right quick and promptly fell out. No concert or karaoke. :( The maddening part is, I didn't sleep for a long time. It's been like little pitiful 2 or 3 hour blocks. If you read this blog regularly, you know that I suffer from bouts of insomnia from time to time. Looks like it's come creeping back. I've had it all week really, but I've had a lot on my mind.
I get to the airport. Make it in time. They did an inspection at Reagan and something went wrong with our plane. This is the first time I had a connecting flight to anywhere, so I was already apprehensive. I didn't freak out big time, but they knew I was stressed. Everybody and their mama must have been going to New Jersey, because initially they told me that I couldn't get out of DC until around 8 or 9pm. (Again thank you to Raymond and Charles and staff.!)
I didn't get to NJ 'til around 2 I guess.
I'm amazed that more places don't carry those little flight approved bottles of Bio True. I need a bit more contact lens fluid than I was allowed to bring which sucks. :(
Got a very nice autographed photo of Charles Malik Whitfield. I wish they'd done more with FBI Agent Victor Henriksen, because I think that would've been stellar. He was starting to come around and would've been a good ally to have. Not to mention, he's not hard on the eyes at all. Had to spend carefully, because I got thrown a few unexpected curveballs. No one's fault, I'll just plan better next time, although the stuff I've been hearing about the post office lately has me more than a bit worried.
For the most part I enjoyed the Q and A's. The only person's I missed was Steve Carlson's and that was because I had a photo op with Rachel Miner. It is very hard to catch every event at these. I guess you just sort of have to pick and choose.
One day, I would also like to play the yes and no game. I know I can at least make it to the medium round.
I don't think the story pitches were as good this year as a whole... (I've only been to 3 of these so far though, and I started attending fairly late in the run. I've been watching since Seas. 1, but job stablility was a factor for me around the time they first started the cons, so even if I wanted to, I prob. couldn't have attended. )
Signings...I did get both Julie McNiven's and Rachel Miner's autographs. I did a photo op with Rachel. She was so cool. That this was her first SPN convention just blows me away. In the autograph line, she told me that she liked my shirt. It was the '67 Hunting Champions shirt. I thought it came from Red Bubble, but it came from Ript Apparel. For the record, I enjoy different things about all the Megs.
I had coffee at the airport. It did nothing. I guess I should've kept it up. The heat made me feel that much worse... I don't do well with energy drinks at all and my primary care physician told me I'm prediabetic. }:( I went upstairs to eat something right quick and promptly fell out. No concert or karaoke. :( The maddening part is, I didn't sleep for a long time. It's been like little pitiful 2 or 3 hour blocks. If you read this blog regularly, you know that I suffer from bouts of insomnia from time to time. Looks like it's come creeping back. I've had it all week really, but I've had a lot on my mind.
Before I get into a recap of yesterday
Note: I think I've figured out a way to break this down, so that it won't be so overwhelming for me...I think I'll just blog about stuff day by day. Didn't think to bring a writing pad or journal or anything...I used to be better about keeping up with stuff like writing, but now it's harder...I guess because my responsibilities are different and in time, will probably become increasingly more so. I see myself doing this maybe two more times with two different locales [Trying really hard for LV. I've already got a friend offering to take me under her wing in LV and she lives there. If that works out, it would definitely be cool. I'd also like to hit Vancouver in 2014 if nothing unforeseen happens... My supervisor and my backup at work are very stingy with me wanting to take what they see as frivolous leave *apparently if it's not a family emergency or medical leave I'm not supposed to want off....I don't abuse my leave, but I think everyone should have a reasonable sized break at least once a year, if only for stress relief. Neither me nor my back up ever gets 1-2 weeks vacation, other staff members do, so we've each got to get our kicks in where it counts. I don't like how that puts us at odds with each other sometimes, but I digress.* I only get one bit of vacation time to really go anywhere and never the whole week. When I can afford to, sometimes I want to spread my wings just a little bit. There's not a problem with staying home, but I do enjoy the little traveling I've done so very much.] I want location photos for SPN so incredibly bad. I got them for the Vampire Diaries...but I'd love them for SPN too. If it doesn't work out, I'll never forget the TVD and SPN cons I was able to attend.
For personal and medical reasons [It's nothing like cancer or lupus or anything, but at the same time I'm noticing difficulty doing things that aren't making sense considering the age I am now.] I don't think it's that I'm all that out of shape either, but I don't know...In any event, I think I'm easing to a stop. My original dermatologist left, so I'm seeing a new one sometime in September...what they took the biopsy for hasn't cleared up and I want to know if the damage is permanent. My primary care physician doesn't seem alarmed by anything because most test results have been normal. Only a couple of rheumatology tests have shown something crazy and the rheumatologist hasn't been able to pin those things down. The pain relievers he's prescribed aren't doing anything. *shrugs* I'm trying other stuff. Getting a back pack...and possibly a new mattress are in the works. Also there's an herb that's a pain reliever ...Boswellia I think, but I've got to stop the prednisone first. New shoes and wearing my brace more often have done little if anything. The pain isn't debilitating, but it hinders me just the same. I don't really want to be part of a group to discuss this stuff, because after a while it just gets repetitive and it depresses more than encourages me. My vision problems are also coming back, which is another reason I've never really been gung ho about learning to drive. [From about the time I was 7, I think I've had vision problems. I don't want to add to the insanity. Nor do I want to be involved in another car accident that involves litigation...That was just a miserable experience. It could've been worse though, all things considered.]
Most of the time I don't let on about a whole lot, because I already use mental pep talks and some scripture. I've also never really felt comfortable handling things any other way, but my own way...I'm sorry that it's caused the problems it has, but it's who I am...I'm like both my parents in a lot of ways, but it almost makes me laugh to the point of tears how much like my father I really am. I love him and I make sure to tell him and try to show him.
That being said, I'm going to get on with my recap of yesterday. I'm sorry if some of this seems like it's coming out of left field, but these were things that I felt like I really needed to say/post
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For personal and medical reasons [It's nothing like cancer or lupus or anything, but at the same time I'm noticing difficulty doing things that aren't making sense considering the age I am now.] I don't think it's that I'm all that out of shape either, but I don't know...In any event, I think I'm easing to a stop. My original dermatologist left, so I'm seeing a new one sometime in September...what they took the biopsy for hasn't cleared up and I want to know if the damage is permanent. My primary care physician doesn't seem alarmed by anything because most test results have been normal. Only a couple of rheumatology tests have shown something crazy and the rheumatologist hasn't been able to pin those things down. The pain relievers he's prescribed aren't doing anything. *shrugs* I'm trying other stuff. Getting a back pack...and possibly a new mattress are in the works. Also there's an herb that's a pain reliever ...Boswellia I think, but I've got to stop the prednisone first. New shoes and wearing my brace more often have done little if anything. The pain isn't debilitating, but it hinders me just the same. I don't really want to be part of a group to discuss this stuff, because after a while it just gets repetitive and it depresses more than encourages me. My vision problems are also coming back, which is another reason I've never really been gung ho about learning to drive. [From about the time I was 7, I think I've had vision problems. I don't want to add to the insanity. Nor do I want to be involved in another car accident that involves litigation...That was just a miserable experience. It could've been worse though, all things considered.]
Most of the time I don't let on about a whole lot, because I already use mental pep talks and some scripture. I've also never really felt comfortable handling things any other way, but my own way...I'm sorry that it's caused the problems it has, but it's who I am...I'm like both my parents in a lot of ways, but it almost makes me laugh to the point of tears how much like my father I really am. I love him and I make sure to tell him and try to show him.
That being said, I'm going to get on with my recap of yesterday. I'm sorry if some of this seems like it's coming out of left field, but these were things that I felt like I really needed to say/post
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